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Tue Apr 7, 2009, 9:30 PM

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April 1st Goodness
Don't mind the TinyURL links, some of them would have been insanely long otherwise

Dog is sick, was throwing up last night and having diarrhea, I find out this morning that it wasn't the normal runs but it's bloody. Gotta take him tot he vet, but I have no moneys. It's 35 for the checkup and 30 for the fecal test alone.. I think I have enough for the checkup but I can't afford anything else.

Went to the vet one but both docs were in emergency surgery so I'm leaving in the next 10 minutes to go back. Let's hope things aren't serious...
Bye
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So the dog is taken care of, he has Colitis, and I just had to charge 184$ to my debit card that wasn't there to begin with so now it's been further overdrawn than before, and the bank has started adding 5$ a day for it being overdrawn for so long...

And now I find out that... We aren't going to have enough to cover the rent, much less the bills (my car note hasn't been paid for 2 or 3 months now). I hate this shyt. He believes he is so good at his job but he barely makes anything. I fucking hate commission based jobs, even more so when your pay is dependent on it 100%... And why doesn't he leave it and get something better, for better or at least steady pay. He likes the job he has, he likes the people. I'm sorry I don't give a damn, I'll deal with a job I hate for a little while as long as I can guarantee I'll have a home and bills will be taken care of.

Hence why I'm considering reenlisting... I don't particularly want to but it's whatever right. Since he isn't able to handle shit I'll just handle my own shit.
I've seriously thought about just getting a job, and getting to where I can live comfortably on my own pay and then just telling him to step up or get out.. But enough of that...

That's it for this mini rant.. Thing... Whatever

I enjoy typing in Saurian and wish I had more people to talk to in it

Will also be searching for a new css eventually

Tater,
~Kitty

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~styrecat Apr 8, 2009, 4:38:16 AM

I am glad that you got your pup the medical attention he needs, but I'm not too happy knowing you are having money troubles. I hope you go out and find a job that is not commission based, because those just SUCK - i've never worked one, and i never want to. I think you know what you need to do. support yourself and do what you need to do to get/stay out of debt and if you can eventually afford a relationship (which is how it seems to me, you're paying to be in this relationship, maybe not just in money) and yeah. put yourself first love

you deserve it, you deserve better

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"I am the shadows of this world, untouched..." -styrecat

=NeoNekoPunk Apr 9, 2009, 12:55:59 PM

As soon as I have a job and can cover my own ass my words are going to be 'step up, or get out' and I already know he wont step up so it will only be a matter of time. And also so I cover my ass by knowing I gave him the option one last time.

I've heard so often for most of my life that I should put myself first and yet through the years when I did I'd get called selfish. I'm 22 and the battle between putting myself first and being thought selfish still confuses and fights with me... Sad isn't it

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~styrecat Apr 9, 2009, 1:10:12 PM

yes, it really is. i'm only 20 and i've gone through hell. i'm just glad i didn't have any boyfriend to be dragged through the shit. i try to help others, i love it, it make me feel good, but i forgot to take care of myself and i knew it, i felt it. i can't believe people are calling you selfish for putting yourself first... who is saying this? your man? family? doesn't matter - you TELL them that "I am straightening things out in my life and if I give off the image of being 'selfish,' than that's just how it's going to be for a while..."

if they know the things you are going through and they stop to think about it, they'll understand. if they don't stop to think and keep badgering you about it, then they don't understand. best thing to do if they don't understand is try to explain it to them, if they won't listen, sometimes you gotta toss people aside in your life for a while.

You're a smart woman, i believe you can do what you gotta do to get yourself into a better situation than you are now, but i'm still here for you

i dunno if you think my advice is good or not, but sometimes you gotta be strict in life, even if your spirit isn't. you hang in there and do what you need to

i know you will and you'll be happy.

if you need anything, just give me a shout

send a note, skype, anything.
I'll be here

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"I am the shadows of this world, untouched..." -styrecat

=NeoNekoPunk Apr 10, 2009, 9:52:46 PM

Yeah, I'm 22 and already need a minimum of 20grand to at just barely clear me of all the debt I have right now

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What I lack in height, I make up for in ferocity and spirit... - Me
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Humans will never cease to disgust me...

~styrecat Apr 11, 2009, 5:02:53 AM

just do what you got to do

you'll be out of there in no time

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"I am the shadows of this world, untouched..." -styrecat

~styrecat Apr 11, 2009, 4:59:33 AM

do what you need to do, hun

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"I am the shadows of this world, untouched..." -styrecat

=NeoNekoPunk Apr 11, 2009, 10:02:23 AM

Yeah, I'm working on that part, and with how some things are going it looks like I'm probably going to be single in the coming months

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What I lack in height, I make up for in ferocity and spirit... - Me
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Humans will never cease to disgust me...

~styrecat Apr 11, 2009, 2:14:38 PM

well, don't let that bring you down
strut your stuff and be happy being single!

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"I am the shadows of this world, untouched..." -styrecat

=NeoNekoPunk Apr 14, 2009, 3:11:46 AM

I don't want to be single. I'm stupid but I still love him, even if I want to grind his face with a cheese grater

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What I lack in height, I make up for in ferocity and spirit... - Me
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Humans will never cease to disgust me...

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=somuchluv Apr 7, 2009, 11:26:18 PM

i have to be honest with you.
i dont know why you are still with this guy.
he trashed your apartment + who knows what other stuff went on, and you yourself said you were leaving him.
go look for a job that will pay enough to support you or re-enlist and just get out of this relationship.
you dont seem happy in it, sweetie..